UPDATE 2018: SHIVA SHAKTI, TWIN FLAMES, 11:11
january 6th 2018
for all the -true- Twin flames out there, i decided to add something:
it is imperative for true twins to understand, that the one side of the twin flame whole, is the mostly shakti energy...(i say 'mostly' as shakti carries shiva energy within, male carries female within, and feminine carries masculine within, like the yin-yang symbol -i am sure u all know- shows)..
this means, the one half of the twin couples' task is to be 'the destroyer' in the physical...so this means -it is usually the male half of the couple-, that what people have named the so called 'runner', the one who chooses to run away from the relationhip -out of fear- , has exactly that task to perform ...he is the 'destroyer'...it is his task to run away leaving his partner destroyed...as by the destruction, her devastation and falling apart, she is called to do her task...which is to dissolve all barriers & limitations within herself ...his destructive force is meant for her to become liberated, void...to empty out...it is required she becomes void of any concepts and opinions about love...that is her task.. (that was what i did the first 5 years of my ascension process...and i did actually heed the call and totally withdrew from the world in order to be able to do what i needed to do)
the shakti force within the shiva is that she has the taks to dissolve or destroy all barriers to love and pure union within herself...it is the death of the 'evil' or blocking forces (= ego) within herself she actively seeks (in the ideal case, because many don't understand the twin flame thing at all, and become whimmering victims desperately trying to get him to do what they want, from an ego standpoint..not at all understanding what is being asked, what is required, losing themself in the drama...they -as all unaware egos do- wish to control everything...this does not work, as it is within the nature of shiva shakti couples that the 'runner' will only run away faster and withdraw more the harder she tries to make him do what she wants..it is counter productive...her task lies within and with herself..she is the one that needs to become purified , harmonised and balanced within herself first (in her own masculine femine energy- in order for the relationship to be able to manifest in the physical...it is sheer energy work...and the destruction is a liberation force...as it makes one totally receptive...
the fierce warrior within me -there was no stopping her- knew what was required -not that i understood it all, but i just knew what needed to be done-...so i blasted through all limitation, like a fury ...that was my destructive liberation force...the one he kindled in me...that made me want to move all these mountains, for love, to get back to our wonderful union, where it all began...for years and years...(which no one understood, because from a human ego perspective everyone has to instantaneously just do what they want them to do -and if not, they make drama, throw tantrums, want to force their will-...they have no idea how to let go, and just be with themselves, they want everyone to solve everything for them, want to get it all from the outside...want to get him to understand and be with them, when the task at hand is not about making him understand anything, but about dissolving all limitations within yourself that keeps him from being with u...he is not the one u need to work on... so u just leave him alone, and do your work...u will be guided...
when, after 5 years my emptying out was done, i was then directed to find him again...still we were no where near physical reunion -little did i know, i just followed divine directive-...the fact i had now become totally freed, void and neutral, without any concepts or opinions or limitations, blindly trusting the divine, having gone beyond all physcial illusions, having fully regained my divine power by doing so, becoming an completely open channel for the divine to flow through, a follower of pure love without any holding back..in total surrender...was the state that was required in order to receive the divine union...the moment he was confronted with me in the physical again, things started happening...not in the flesh, but in energy...
little did i know, that after all those gruelling years of emptying out, accompanied by horrible pains and being attacked by the dark forces endless times, -which was my job to overcome and blast through,...i had to become bigger and stronger than them, thus blasting straight through them, destroying them, by choosing not to believe in them, but in me-, we were still no where near reunion and the next phase would begin, for more years to come...-by which i also contributed to the dissolution of old energy on planet earth-..all energy work...but it got easier and easier..until i no longer carried any such matching energies within for them to call upon..thus they could no longer reach me...it was a big journey out of the old world terror...and it was much more than that..it was the force that creates worlds...i served the dissolution of the old paradigm on planet earth...
so after he was confronted back with me, we started merging in the ethereal realms -and no, i did not know this too would take more years-...our higher enegries, which had now been able to come in by means of the work i did, merged...this again took 5 more years ...but it was of another order...yes, there were still walls to be blasted through, but they were his, and it happened in a totally different way...yes, there was the occasional disconnect, and in that the attack of dark forces, but in the process i held his hand, in the ethers, and guided him through it..he needed me to help him... it was all intuitivley, cause i would feel him, and see him appear, and i knew it when he was tense, or when he was confused or in pain...and each time i put my hand on his chest, or held his head against my brest,tellling him things were alright, and not to worry..he was not aware this was me soothing him, but i was there all the way...i did not force him in any direction, i just went with whatever was occuring...in full support...and totally receptive to him...in unconditional love and support...
it all happened intuitively...i never thought about what i was doing, he needed my support and i gave it, never turning him down, as my love for him is unconditional and has no end...that is the divine -mother- energy in me, i became very nurturing -something i never really had this way, he brought it out in me-... he is my son, my father, my brother and my lover...i did not demand anything... was totally open to receiving him, all of him, with no resistance whatsoever... i felt we were merging in energy more and more..it was also very sexual..he made love with me in the ethers, and it was sheer bliss.. the more of his old stuff we dissolved -issues that came up in the life he was living apart from me, from which he was to grow and evolve, facing and dissolving the very issues he would later have to face in a life with me ( the very reasons/illusions he used to reject me all those years ago), the more ONE we became.. (i could not tell where he ended and i began..still not...i move with him, and he moves with me...when he organises his stuff where he is, i get the urge to do the same, when he bought new things, i felt the urge to do the same, when he had his kids, i felt the urge to totally rearrange the house in order to fot the new situation/life, etc...i did not know why i felt the urge for all those things, it only became clear much later, that i was adjusting my space according to what was going on in his life/development)...he had to overcome his own rejection to true love...healing it all beforehand, before it could come to fruition in the physical ...so he had kids -a boy and a girl!-, a family, and a home, a partner older than him -like me-, and a life in a far away country, far from home, like i always was on this earth....and a very vast country too, known for its vast wide wild landscapes... in a way that country is like me...totally wide open, with many different aspects to it... while i spent my life in nothingness, doing my work...not allowed to move in any direction..no doing, creating or controlling of any kind..i was never mad at him or his partner..
i understood years ago that there was a purpose to this.. when first confronted with it, it was very rough yes, it hurt like hell...but the divine showed me what the reason behind it all was..and that by that life, he was brought to face up to all his own inner limitations, the barriers he had thrown up against our union.. which i could now help him with, since i had already dissolved them within myself... his kids as well as his partner served him and us...to overcome...and he served them, as they too came on this earth with a mission of their own...experiences they wish to make -like growing up without a biological father present in their lives, and seeing where it will take them-, a choice made on a soul level..they already know on a soul level he is to leave them (the destroyer again)..but he has brought the children into this world in partnership with a woman who helped him become who he needed to be in order to be able to be with me... and his gift to her -who always wanted to be a mother badly and heard her biological clock ticking -something i never had, cause i know when god wants u to have a child it will happen anyway, in perfect divine timing-, was the children she so desperately wanted...and she too seeks spiritual fulfilment and insight, her davastation will help her grow and evolve, and it all serves the changing of the tides...so in all this, he serves, and they serve, and i serve...we all serve each other on this world -and beyond-..and the life he had over there reflects the very old world/illusion of separation we came here to dissolve...it is who his partner is, and his life there was...since he chose separation -and rejection to true love- all those years ago..and so that is exactly what he got...it totally reflected who he was...
those kids will be a great support for her as well as each other...they will be her reason to continue on, and with my love moving out of the way, she can become partnered up with someone who is befitting of her..my love has a far greater mission to fulfil...he was never meant to stay...all i am is grateful to them, the souls that played his kids and partner...because without them, he could never be with me, neither of us could have done what we needed to do, and go where we needed to go, becoming who we needed to be, without each other....and they will all be just fine...yes..their will be heartache and plenty confusion at first...-the kids are still too young to really get it-...but we are women, we are amazones, we endure...and we overcome...she has a good support system of family and friends around her too...it will be hard at first, but then...my hardships have gone on for a lifetime, and i too -somehow- prevailed..us humans are capable of moving beyond any obstacle..and new does not come about without the destruction of the old..something this world is now experiencing bigtime...and there is always a way, a solution to everything...and humanity will find it..no matter how long it takes...the ground work for it has already been done, the new blueprint is in place...created by people like me, and my love (to me there really is no him or i, there is only the one)
he and i already dealt with all these themes in the ethers...we moved it all out of the way beore they actually occurered -which took me some time to understand, that that was what we were in fact doing-...once it all became clear to me, and i then still had to very powerfully SUMMON him home through the ethers in between xmas and new years eve 2017 after all the work apart was done, i was kinda bummed out, thinking 'jeez, someone could have told me that god, that that was what we were doing, and then i still had to take to action summing him back, when i always kinda thought he would somehow pop up here all on his own -which is what was shown to me in a dream i had late sept. 2017, where he came straight at me, ignoring everything and everyone else that was there, taking me in his arms and smiling...so i figured by that dream, he was now ready and would arrive, was on his way to me all on his own...little did i know that i was to summon him, pushing against all that was there, all the loveliness, having to rattle him up, plant 'get up & leave there' into his system loud and clear, showing him the path to take, and then dealing with all the turmoil, upheaval, and huge shifting all that brought about in him, which all in all lasted for 2 weeks..then things settled...another rollercoaster ride -like the one early 2014, as decribed in a previous article-, which now i could handle really well due to all the work done in times past, and the unwavering love, security and peace established within ' ...it left me thinking: why don't these things come with clear instructions anyway, a nice 'manual of assembly' would have come in handy ;) -
he knows now how to be a father (nothing teaches u more about love than parenthood), how to deal with a partner that is older than him, how not to stay stuck in an old world out of sheer fear and convenience -or duty-...he learned how to walk the unconvential path...how to leave all he knows and deems confortable behind..he also already knows on a deeper level how to leave that life behind and why..as we talked it over in the ethers..it is all done...there will be no drama... he can leave without any much discussion or heartache.. and i am with him all the way, like i always was...he now knows about true love..and what it is not...(as his partner is pretty controlling)
the closer we came the more we merged...and the more we merged, the deeper he penetrated me -i would feel pains when he moved in deeper, in the area i had felt kinda hurting inside -like pressure- when we made love all those years ago in the flesh, after which i bled, both times he was with me-...and the deeper he moved in, the more blisfull i became...there were such feelings of total abundace, of security, of home, of sheer paradise...my food and drink tasted like something straight from heaven, i had never tasted like that before...things would all taste their own form of creamy...my urine started to smell like sweet cotton candy -still does-...and i would breaaaaaathe so lovely..my whole body was in a sate of constant blissfullness, adjusting too yes, but overal soooooo deeply loved...
it was blissful, ecstatic...,my whole being experienced all new sensations... it would make me all tired and sleepy..it made me not want to be in the world out there at all anymore..i just wanted to stay inside, in my own world of heavenly bliss..the world out there being just too much of a ridiculous contrast to all the wonderfulness i felt inside...at some point no more themes to be solved arose..it was all done...i was on such a high, like doing drugs, except not...i was high on love...sheer exstatic bliss...it goes way beyond any orgasm..it is indescribable to those who have never felt it...like a constant state of climax..it waves through your body, from down to up, and up to down... also felt all fresh and clean, and new..and so tremendously loving...such deep love..such wonderful bliss...taking me to such highs...i no longer wanted for anything...all i wanted to do was stay in, and float, in his arms..nothing could touch me...i had a whole life with him in the ethers, in which he showed me what our life together would be like, with a child -daughter- and a small house...he implanted the new life in me in ..(energy is always first, the material adapts/follows way later...)... there were days his love totally incapacated me, i would get so deeply tired, my body so heavy sleepy, all i could do was lay down and let it all wash over -or through- me....
it was the ultimate...the total merger of shiva shakti energy...and i never defined or named it...i just instinctively went with it..and it took me all the way...'up'
people never understood why i withdrew..they of course took it all personal, 'oh, she does not want to have anything to do with ME', when i was not in the least bit occupied with anything or aynone out there, it had nothing to do with them...and people also told me plenty times ' jeez, u still have not let go of that guy, he aint worth it, if he wanted to be with u he would be, u live in lala land'...little did they know..
he and i...we are on a divine mission..of dissolving the old on this earth, and bringing pure love back in...and it has nothing to do with any kind of life the old way, what i did has nothing to do with any kind of old worldliness..and it was never really any choice either...people would say that too, that i could choose differently...that i had to work, and live, and move on...that i had no life, and was basically pathetic...but nope, that is simply not the case..i had to learn to be carried, to not control, not even where money or food would come from, i had to learn total surrender..and it had nothing to do with life..it had to do with who i am, who he and i are, and what we came here to do..and i have, from day one, been totally commited to it...no matter what anyone would do or say...no matter what... i knew inside...and nothing or no one could stop me...because we serve the whole...that is what we do...we came here to destroy and create anew..
it goes way beyond anything humans out there in the closed off loveless world can understand...they have no other way but to judge ridicule and reject it... because they do not know love, the higher way, commitment, or fearlessness...or total surrender to things unseen...they live under the veil of illusion, of terror, physical addiction, and do not believe love/the divine is real...when to me, it is the ONLY THING REAL...
i never blamed them or got mad for their ignorance...i did not try to explain anything anynore either at some point, no use...i just kept on...never seeking help or strength from others/the outside, but purely delving from within, from the depths of my own well...
when my sister was here last week, and she so obviously lied to me, and had no clue..thinking she could play her mother Theresa syndrome on me, thinking she needed to save me from my poor delusional self -which makes her feel better about herself, as helping others makes her feel valued, seen and heard-...and trying to place herself above me, by trying to project her own limited understanding onto me, forcing 'help' on me i do not need, wanting me to come down to the old world she lives in, which makes her feel bigger, more powerful... as she has never been able to grasp what her little sister was experiencing, she craves the same experiences but cannot get to them, not with all the yoga and meditation in the world, so she wants me down to where she is...the old world will do that... she would never be able to handle it either..these horridly difficult tasks are only given to those souls strong and evolved enough, it was no walk in the park..and she has no clue about how NOT to be controlling, even if she assumes she does- ..
i only felt forgiveness, softness and love towards her...i simply waited until she left, closed the door, and told her in a fb message not to come by no more for this holiday..not in anger..i felt nothing but softness..i simply needed my space to stay clean now...things are not as they used to be...and my love remains...no matter what...i am love, and love is me...and no one can change it...
when my sister was here -jan. 1st 2017-, my whole body went into total shut down mode..it was protecting me, it happens..i can get total brain fog with people when their energy is too low for me to be around..and with my sister, my whole body simply totally phased out...i could not think or do anymore, got very drowzy, sleepy, my body felt heavy, i could not hold her up no more, and i had to go to bed...i left her in my kitchen watching a movie..she stayed the night on my couch, as my phasing out had her alarmed, it is something she never dealt with before and did not know how to respond to...i had an interesting night drifting in and out of sleep, and connection with the divine, oscillating, glowing as my body was busy torching off all the crap she brought into my space...i felt nothing but love...i got back to myself pretty fast after she left...as i see it, she was simply the last test the divine sent my way, to see if i had truly anchored in love...and i passed the test with flying colors..i never believed in her, or in the disconnect -that naturally followed after, (always does when moving into a new space after having broken out or through the old one...for a moment then the door to demons is opened and there is terror, but i kept myself to the outside borders of it..i know by now how to navigate these things and how NOT to get dragged off by all that..and it was the very last time...so halleluja for that...it was just one last thing to overcome, one last big cleanse -being also my twins cleansing of the old life he has with the family-...being a veteran, i know how to deal, no big thing)
in between xmas and new years' the currents had already changed -in energy-, and i suddenly felt a total disgust towards the idea of getting to see my sister..when i had been really looking forward to her...i did not understand why i suddenly felt this total disgust, not wanting to see her at all...after she was here, i totally got it...it was just one last old thing to be cleared out of the way...as a last test..and i felt it coming...
so i was unwavering..i was always willing to give up everything to follow love...family, places, material things....now i am so deeply established in love, nothing else can move me...i know inside i am/we are alright, i faced all the fears, overcame it all...and i am safe and secure in gods' hands...
with the changing of the year, we have reached another phase now...there was nothing left to be gained from the life apart...all healing was done...no barriers left between us...in the higher realms we are fully merged, in energy we are fully harmonised and balanced... in the invisble we have established unconditional love... now the currents have changed.. and instead of me following him, he was now changed direction, following me...called back to fulfil the next phase of our divine mission...the physcial part...anchoring purity and love on this earth in the flesh...things no longer feel like out of this world heavenly bliss, although it is still there too in the background...things feel way more earthly now..kinda...
it took years and years for my body to be able to hold such high frequencies, she has totally changed her fabric..her chemical build, hormones work differently as now all glands have aligned...this new life will be far beyond (better) anything ever expected.. had i known it would all take this long, and so much physical pain, such endurance...i probably would not have done it..but i was fed little bits and pieces at a time..so i could take it..and now i know it was well worth it...
we are love and creation itself...in human form...we came to close the gap between human and divine...heaven and earth...and in the process change the fabric of the whole of creation/cosmos... and it goes way beyond any old human understanding... it simply is of a much higher order
smal addition:
Shiva Shakti: The same whole
Shiva and Shakti are the twin flames; the mirror image of each other. They complete each other, thus they are the indestructible force that unites together to create the entire cosmos.
Tantra is the Fabric of the Universe:
Why is it that Shiv and Shakti indulge in a tantric union? It is because Tantra is the fabric of the Universe. The word Tantrism has been derived from the Sanskrit word 'tantra', which means a system.
http://www.facebook.com/ilse.chronicles/posts/1936605986602777
http://www.speakingtree.in/allslides/shiva-shakti-all-you-need-to-know-about-tantric-sex
i seem to do everything backwards, the other way around hihi (maybe because this is the time of 'returning'
:) ) ...first i went the path, all the way, relying solely on my own inner guidance, , never reading anything , and following divine directive -yes, the divine talks to me, sometimes even in words or sentences, but mostly in feelings, dreams, images and visions-.. she gave me all this clarity... the divine overview of things, from her perspective... now that it is all done, i decided to read a little about twin flames and shiva-shakti (siddenly felt drawn to that)... and what resonates (as quite a lot of it is total bogus, coming from limited, -spiritual- ego oriented, less aware minds, who don't know what they are talking about, surely not having experienced any of it for themselves), i decided to share here, for the less 'enlightended' still on the path to LOVE :)
it is much better to follow your own guidance, so one is not held back by any 'knowledge' (limitation programming)...as all that 'education' simply stands in the way of purity and innocence.. i am glad i was able to do that...never hindered by any of the old energy spiritual -and other- humbug..thank god i never had all that to overcome too...(to me, all those defintions, names and explanations people give to the twin flame thing etc, are just waaay to complicated anyway...it really is not that complex...as it is pure...and purity..is innocent..and therefore very simple...and straight forward...without names or definitions...those only stand in the way of pure SENSING....remember.. the divine always takes the simplest easiest path.. the way of least resistance... quick and easy, coming from any direction most convenient...not wasting any energy on pointless stuff...only humans do that, overcomplicating, defining, naming and boxing in things.. it blocks the free flow... souls who have no higher, pure understanding, will try to box it all in with names, definitons, techniques and the likes...when u truly understand it, u can explain it simply, to a 3 year old -Einstein said that-, and it needs no controlling whatsoever.. u dont try to grasp it with your mind, but feel it with your pure heart...i let go of all definitions, explanations or understanding aaages ago...pure LOVE is void of all definition...i simply just flow with it..the divine current)
but anyway... that is me...these past years i did more sleeping during the day and living during the night (i like the dark, the night..as it is calm and gentle)... and when my new downstairs neighbour asked me to help her carry in the big heavy boxes containing the new bed she bought, i told her i best walk backwards, as that seems to work better for me somehow... she wanted us to trade places, so she could walk backwards -maybe thinking that way she would get the lighter end of the load-..and indeed, walking forward did not work, the moment we traded places, i slipped and had to either drop the load or break my legs.. so... i decided to drop the bed
once one has ascended, one sees the divine's view of things...people think all they are is this, this physical body...they are totally lost in the illusion of it... the divine perspective has nothing to do with how humans view life, as all humans see is this earth, this physically, and believe it is all they are...to the divine, the earth is simply a melting pot of all kinds of experiences serving the whole..whatever any individual human thinks and creates, ripples throughout all gods' universe, the whole cosmos is affected by it, all worlds get to expand because of it...all worlds serve each other that way...it is just that earth at this time is making a quantum leap, and that sparks new momentum for all...
some are here to experience and be the darkness for others or themselves to overcome, some are here to be pure love..we all have our own unique part to play in the whole, and we all serve each other... we are all the divine in human form, and we all are here to serve the whole of creation...we are not this human shell...each time one human rises above hardship, he serves the whole in rising above theirs..what one does for himself, he does for everyone...when a bunch of miners gets rescued from a collapsed mine, and rises to the surface again, that too embodies and reflects 'rising above', and that too adds to the rise of the whole...and every human present on this earth gets a shot at it...that is why they are all here, and earth is currently so densly inhabited...
the divine perspective has nothing to do with how the old world out there currently sees things..so lost in all the needless drama...if only they knew who they were...a divine powerful creator...but then, some of us are here to show them, to pave the way...god does not see things the way humans sees them...and does not stick to human rules...god is very pragmatic in getting people/souls to where they want or need to go for growth, which has nothing to do with human conventions...
that is all we are here for: expansion...and some of us came here from highly evolved worlds, 'lowering or descending down', only to gift ourselves to the earth and cosmic story and dance...they give themself, incarnated here on this earth, coming in from the future, in order to bring her up, that is their task...as the expansion in consciousness they so fiercely dedicated themselves to, serves the whole..that is the mission they came here to take on...and it has nothing to do with the human old way of things...it requires total surrender to the divine, and total commitment...and to follow when she calls, wherever she calls u to...without fear or hesitation..even when what is being asked is not -at-all understood at that time, not knowing why one has to do this or go there etc...it all comes from the heart...the great central heart...it makes no sense..it is non sensical, and goes against anything sensical humans can grasp..one does not need to understand, but simply follow ones true heart...heed the higher call...
people often get angry with me, as the way i see things, all neutral, like the divine does, does not fit in well with their limited dramatic views of life and being human, and how a human is to behave and be...god often requires his loyal servants to do things no human could ever understand, as they are so full of judgment...they follow materialism, not love... love is only followed in the old world when there is drama, that is when they call to act...that is when love comes at play for fellow humans... without drama, they know no love..
god is pure neutral love without drama...
god sees nothing to criticise..there is no judgment in love...love has room for all...as god IS all...
all throughout my ascension, i felt this ginormous ancient timeless presence in me...eternal... endlessly strong..endlessly powerful...a neutral archaic entity... from before time...from the very core of creation...it feels like endless strength, and endless love...wise & powerful beyond measure... and when the human me was at her end, the giant pushed me forth...often enough, in all my pain and agony, i exclaimed: 'oh dear god, i cannot do what u want me to do, it is simply too hard!'...then the giant would take me and put me to rest, while whispering in my ear, encouraging me, explaining to me, and then after i woke, i would push on...
that giant -love- made me want to push and break through all bounderies, tear down all walls, move mountains aside, change the the current of the ocean, relay all riverbeds...it was my strength..
i can feel it again as i write these words.. the archaic one rising... who lives inside of me...who is me...who writes this.. i am its channel.. and share my insight, strength & bliss with u, so u can take from it...
i have done this countless times before, in many ways, in many worlds, in many forms...always serving in the expansion of consciousness throughout all universes...sparking evolution...serving creation.. never belonging to any one world, but to all of them...thus none...knowing them all...this is my role..as i am from the core...i have always done this...
in merging with the twin flame in the ethers, i also feel eternity...he is in me, and i am in him, for all time...i am his strength and he is mine, we spur each other on, we are each others driving creative force...as that is who we are... eternal being(s), eternal love...eternally one...in perfect harmony and balance...and through our eternal oneness, we closed the gap (the wound of separation in the human heart)...that is our gift to this -and all- world(s)...
there is no time...there is no space...no boundery of physicality...there is only eternal being..
there is just so much love..and strenght...u/we are all so deeply loved... it brings tears to my eyes...
big changes are underway...we are gaining momentum...entering a whole other level...of being