About Me
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From a very young age I was aware of a huge gap between myself and the world in which I was born. Something was very 'wrong'. I didn't understand a thing about the world around me...and she understood nothing of me. I was simply unable to function in the midst of separation, polarization, fear, lack, noise, stress, judgment, struggle, pain and dis-ease.
Being of a highly sensitive nature, I felt these dark energies all around me. It wasn't safe anywhere and weighed down heavily on my soul, making me ever sicker...I felt hopelessly lost ina strange world...I felt like I was drowning and sank away in deep depressions and endless self-destruction...until the lowest point was reached and death was the only thing left to long for...I came very close to death on more than one occasion, she was my best friend for decades. I was never the fluffy, 'floating' spiritual type, and still am not. This is a factual account,speaking from personal experience.
One night, I saw a shooting star...and in the deep miserable state I was in, I asked for healing...I had nothing to lose. Like a miracle the darkness vanished and I came to life. In 2003,after 33 years on this Earth, I could finally breathe free for the very first time! I had prayed the Divine for help...and she had responded...
I got stronger and stronger...and early December of 2005 I moved to the mountains, the waters and rich forests of Austria, all alone and without fear. I intuitively felt that this was the appropriate thing for me to do. Here, in the fresh mountain air, free of all the old, I came to blossom.
But that wasn't all...far from it...My Soul had a grand and ultimate plan...this had been the case all along...
The willingness to allow in, and research the Divine, led to a wonderful journey and a shocking process of spiritual awakening, starting July / September 2007 through the encounter andunion with my Twin Soul (the embodiment of perfect masculine-feminine balance/harmony). An unexpected event, leaving a deep impression of perfect synchronicity...It was time...He left and it ripped me apart (Mimicking of the wound of separation in the human collective heart)...
The intention to submit to this whole journey had been pre-programmed in my DNA, recorded there before I was born. Thus, when meeting my Twin Soul, my programming kicked in, was activated with a shock, as was intended. I underwent an intensive deeppurification. Mentally, emotionally and physically cleansing and neutralizing all the old dark, discordant energies, wiping them from my being. All the old wounds and traumas, all conditioning and polluting toxic energies I had encountered over the years andstored in my cells were pushed out and replaced by Love (light). A deeply painful process of great discipline and gradual release. This process took three grueling years. But I persevered...being the Light Warrior that I am.
I did not work because I felt I shouldn't. Without any safety net or knowing how I would survive, I wilfully allowed myself to fall backwards into the hands of the Divine, where I knew and felt I would be safe and cared for. I totally retreated from the outside world and into the silence, like a recluse, making complete room for the ascension process to unfold. Through the intensity of the. process I was unable to work...as was intended (these systems of 'working' never sat well with me anyway, so releasing this way of being felt very natural). I simply surrendered and trusted.. surrendered to myself, and trusted my inner voice & guidance. This way of being triggered all my fears and I rose above them time and again...I was alwaysmagically taken care of, all my needs were always met in most unexpected ways, like manna from heaven...and this is still true, to this day.
No gurus, spiritual or 'New Age ' practices, not a coach and / or "book wisdom", not worship, mantras or meditation, no ritual and techniques...Nothing but my own inner guidance andinsight brought me to where I needed to go. I dove deep inside my very being and there I found myself, my Divine Spirit...and I found out why I had come to Earth and things had alwaysfelt unnatural and harsh here for me. The closer I got the God inside, the more I recovered this inner connection and became one with it, the more answers I received...True Being unfolded...in Peace, Love and Abundance...as Abundance is our natural state of being...and Love is our essence, the fabric we're made of.
From very far away I was sent here and incarnated in human form to gain full knowledge and understanding of the human/earth energies and to transmute the darkness of this earth into light through my body...To be the first to "ascend", healing the inner wound of separation in the human heart...so that as a divine messenger I could tell man of his greatness, the unifying fields, the end of the old Earth theme and the beginning of the new cycle of harmony after 2012.
I give & share it all freely and it is written and given in Love.
In Loving Service
Ilse
I never read any 'spiritual', metaphysical or philosopy books. What I know comes purely from within...Most of the information on this website I received straight from my Spirit and through my own experience...Quotes by channeled entities are only used as confirmation and to stipulate...And writing can be quite the challenge when living on a different timeline (It makes spelling basically a mess, as words and letters get juggled up. The new timeline has a different (or actually no) order of things, it is timeless and quantum, and thus it can be difficult to get all the letters and words in the right order...plus I have a tendency to write words down as they sound, phonetically, which is the logical way after all. So forgive me the spelling errors...after all it is the message/information that counts...there is no right or wrong way anyway...and correct spelling is an unnecessary nuissance :) I can't even get the clocks in my house to run correctly...some run too fast, others too slow...there is no way of aligning them!
I do not strive for perfection!
Some resonate with the information on this website, some don't. We are all wired differently and thus resonate with different insights and ways of expression and development....what feels 'off'' for one person will feel 'on' for another....A natural kind of gravitation of like vibes with like vibes....and some may have simply not yet arrived at the vibration-level offered here...and will integrate the message to understand it at a later time.
It feels good to have poured almost everything i know and learned into this website...And it also feels good to just give it all away freely...just letting it all go...as I am done with it anyway...it is my gift to whomever will take it...
"They said to Him: "Shall we then, being children, enter the Kingdom?" Jesus said to them: "When you make the two one, and when you make the inner as the outer and the outer as the inner and the above as the below, and when you make the male and the female into a single one, then you shall enter the kingdom." ~Jesus~
Meaning: Balance the inner currents of male (=(re-)action, rational, material/physical,...) and female (restful, intuïtive, ethereal,...) and peace will follow...Trust your intuïtions, dreams and visions and use Inspired Action and your rational/mental capacity to follow through on them...resulting in a fulfilling healthy way of (both spiritual and material/physical) life. Spirit and matter, heaven and earth, thought and action in perfect peaceful neutral balance, as ONE. Trust the Divine inside like a child would trust its mother and father...
"Look, the sower went out, took a handful of seeds, and scattered them. Some fell on the road, and the birds came and gathered them. Others fell on rock, and they didn't take root in the soil and didn't produce heads of grain. Others fell on thorns, and they choked the seeds and worms ate them. And others fell on good soil, and it produced a good crop: it yielded sixty per measure and one hundred twenty per measure." ~Jesus~
Meaning: some will hear this message and learn and prosper, others will disgard it, out of fear or otherwise, and remain barren as they are...neither one is better than the other...Both are valid experiences. Some will speak all the right words but will not live by them, they let their ego prevail (=suffocating thorns). They will talk the talk, but not walk the walk.
"I have come that they might have life, and have it abundantly." ~Jesus~
"If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you.
If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you." ~Jesus~
This website is bringing forth part of what I have within...
"I am the light that illuminates all things. I am all: from me all came forth, and to me all is attained. Split a piece of wood; I am there. Lift up the stone, and you will find me there." ~Jesus~
We are all inside everything material that surrounds us...without us, matter would not exist...physicality is because we are...without our focus and intent it falls apart into nothing. We are the Creator Gods that create and uphold realities.
“I am from the balance of Unity. I received that which belongs to my father/mother. I am your student! Because of this I say, Whoever is unified will be full of light but whoever is divided is full of darkness." ~Jesus~
"This knowledge would be of value to me in my ministry. The more I knew about my fellowman, the better I could understand and help him. This was my mission in life: to help each man and woman know his real self and how to express his true potential. This journey had helped me realize how much work there was for me to do and how much I had to learn myself before I could proceed with my life work." ~Jesus~
"... for I proceeded forth and came from God; neither came I of myself but he sent me." ~Jesus~
This is who I am for this Earth...