The exile of the Hebrews to Babylon, is described as a lost time, to the best of my understanding. They longed for Zion, and the temple in Jerusalem. This is expressed in psalm 137, that was made into a hit in the eighties by Boney -M - you know it - “ By the rivers of Babylon, where we sat down, there we wept, when we remembered Zion”. It may have seemed little good was coming from their defeat and exile. This story is told perhaps in the book of Daniel, but perhaps I am showing my lack of knowledge of the Bible.

But life goes on, with or without us, and all around us. My circle of people circulated. Times and circumstances changed, little by little, and I am sure my attitude changed as well, without my being aware of it.

This section has been removed to avoid being misconstrued into something that does not present the living real people in a positive light as intended by the author, R David Foster, whose every intention is to reinforce the character, integrity and honour of all persons mentioned in this project. It is now under revision so as to maintain the integrity and honour of the real living people or persons mentioned against malicious audiences who may wish to discredit and defame real living people on the basis of this writing.

So there is not any sure way of knowing whether one is in a marriage, a balance of whole and part, that can be had. This bumps the whole deal up to a spiritual exercise, rather than an intellectual or legal engagement. One can only choose how one will proceed, regardless of what everyone around one is doing or telling one to do.

On the pilgrimage, last week, last Saturday morning, at St. Ignace II, where St. Jean de Brebeuf and Gabriel Lalemant were martyred in 1649, the story of the attack of the Iroquois was told to us by an archaeologist. When it was known that 1000 Iroquois warriors were outside the incomplete palisade protecting 80 christian Ouendat (Huron), Brebeuf walked out to them, unarmed, for whatever reason. The Iroquois took his approach as a trick, and failed to attack immediately, allowing almost all Ouendat (Huron) to escape to St. Louis, which we walked by that morning on our way to St. Marie. This is a man who acted regardless of what others were doing or pressing him to do. He died a martyrs death, preaching so much as they tortured him, that they cut out his tongue. They did not even feel he was worthy to be taken back to Iroquois territory as a war trophy and tortured there, so he died in the territory of his ministry.

Spirituality is not just how one is inclined, it predestines everything. Our mind is informed by the Spirit, and we may or may not resolve our spirituality intellectually. Marriage is testified to by myself and the Spirit. Listen. One day I will die, as I have many times, but by the grace of God, it will not be for the lack of pursuing marriage. If God grants me marriage in my life, it will have the highest honor, as Jesus points to the Father, and Mary points to Jesus, and the Spirit has pointed to marriage.

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Tuesday, August 16th, 2011

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Verses 13 & 14 13 Zerubbabel the father of Abiud, Abiud the father of Eliakim, Eliakim the father of Azor, 14 Azor the father of Zadok, Zadok the father of Akim, Akim the father of Eliud,

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 7 7 Emily became Sharon, who became Sherry, who became Irene .

the text of the animation, HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !,

written by R David Foster

Verse 7 Discussion

NIV Bible text verses 13 & 14

As mentioned earlier, in the discussion of Marcelle, in verse three, there are matriarchs that overshadowed any marriage interest. Marcelle was both a marriage interest and a matriarch, as she endured Jacqueline, Marysse and Dorcas. Ideally, there can be only one marriage interest who must also be a matriarch, so as to be approached as everything from a child, through an adult, to a parent. Many relationships retain a matriarch separate from the spouse, and this gives rise to a dreaded Mother-In-Law, but one may not serve two masters or else they will hate one and love the other.

This section has been removed to avoid being misconstrued into something that does not present the living real people in a positive light as intended by the author, R David Foster, whose every intention is to reinforce the character, integrity and honour of all persons mentioned in this project. It is now under revision so as to maintain the integrity and honour of the real living people or persons mentioned against malicious audiences who may wish to discredit and defame real living people on the basis of this writing.

So a child must become an adult, and then accept the role of parent as it is presented to them. The child must arrange the stars in their sky when they become an adult, and navigate as a parent. The issue though, is whether the parent will always be a parent. Sure, they may always see themselves as such, but the child, in their path to adulthood and ultimately marriage, must cast of the matriarchy of their mother, if there is to be an infinite commitment to their spouse. This does not mean they will disrespect their parents, but that they will maintain an adult-adult relationship out or respect and honour for their parents. And not only respect for their parents, but for the respect and honour of their parents' relationship with each other, as husband and wife. No one would argue that all too often the man enters into a marriage like relationship for the purpose of sex. I assert that all too often the woman enters into a marriage like legally binding commitment for the purpose of children, and puts the children above the spouse in their priorities, which not only denies the spouse, but overpowers the children and unduly influences the children's relationships with their spouses. So a son may not deny his mother in favour of his wife, and this limits the necessarily unlimited marriage relationship of the son.

Furthermore, a father may unduly influence his daughter, who may not respect her parents' marriage by maintaining an adult-adult relationship with her parents. If we are to follow Christ, deny ourselves and take up our cross, in pursuit of marriage, than we must make our spouse our parent, friend and child, and place our marriage relationship above all other family relationships, if only out of respect for the relationship between our parents. Wherever it says that a man will leave his father and mother and be joined to his spouse, I believe the corollary is true as well – that a woman will leave her father and mother and be joined to her spouse. This is for the integrity of the marriage relationship. If there is not to be one dominant over the other, than the spouses must come together as equals, without one family tagging along for the ride rather than the other.

If there is to be a marriage of equals, than the the spouses not only share equal rights, but equal responsibilities. If a husband must take up his cross, than the wife must take up her's as well. If the husband must deny his family, than the wife must deny her family as well, for the sake of the balance of whole and part, female and male, in the sacred One of the marriage relationship. If the husband must suffer condemnation, execution and rebirth for the sake of his marriage relationship, then the wife must suffer condemnation, execution and rebirth for the sake of her marriage relationship. If the mother must invest, release and witness the destruction of her children, than the father must invest, nurture, release and witness the rebirth of his children.

The book, The Theology of the Body , by the late Pope John Paul II, is said to be a ticking time bomb in today's church. It has also been said that Christopher West, who has been explaining the meaning of the Theology of the Body, both in presentations and writings, is lighting the fuse on the bomb. The impression the book gives is that the sexual revolution of the nineteen-sixties did not go far enough in opening up our awareness of love, commitment, and marriage. Suffice it to say that there is far more to marriage than just sex and babies. There is far more to sex than genitals! There is far more to babies than motherhood !

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Sunday, August 21st, 2011

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© R David Foster 2009, 2011

Verses 15 & 16 15 Eliud the father of Matthan, Matthan the father of Jacob, 16 and Jacob the father of Joseph, the husband of Mary, of whom was born Jesus, who is called Christ .

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 8 8 Maisie returned in the thirty ninth year to rule in the forty second year, and begat the second cycle fall and a new life in the Spirit .

the text of the animation, HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !,

written by R David Foster

Verse 8 Discussion

NIV Bible text verses 15 & 16

First of all, there was an omission in the genealogy of Jesus, in the typing of the text I have taken from the Bible, New International Version. I omitted Eliazar, son of Eliud ! This throws off the 14 generation count as it would only add up to 13 generations, counting Jeconiah down to Jesus. So I stand corrected.

In the errors we make, there is the image of a new creation. We err in our limited awareness, as we are not fully aware of everything, and these errors are a direct result of our limited awareness. Even an oversight or a slip of the tongue bears witness to how limited our awareness is, when we are engrossed in something other than the matter at hand, and since we cannot be aware of everything we miss an aspect of the matter at hand.

Jesus talks of how the religious leaders of his time “strain out a gnat but swallow a camel”. The religious thought of the day was limited in it's ability to comprehend reality. Jesus was condemned by both the religious leaders, who acted on behalf of the Jewish faith and the Jewish people, and by the secular leaders, who acted on behalf of the state and the citizens of Rome. This is not a mistake. Jesus was teaching beyond the world of the religion of the day, and beyond the state which had political power. He was wrong on both counts.

Why was such a wonderful man wrong ? Jesus was advocating a new and greater awareness, that would not just fill in a missing piece in the incomplete puzzle of the day, but transform the entirety of the then current awareness. Jesus did not oppose the law, but rather, followed it more intensely than was commonly practiced, and this brought on astounding new ideas and an astounding new awareness.

An example of this is the question “Where is the centre of the the universe ?” In classical astronomy, earth was the centre of the universe, but when telescopes made further, more intense observations possible, the Sun became a more obvious centre of the solar system, at least. Today we may say the centre of the milky way galaxy is a better centre of the universe. But when more thoroughly intensive observations are made, if we do not find any other intelligent life in the known universe, earth may once again seem a more appropriate centre of the universe.

If one is to follow the teachings of Jesus and the christian tradition more intensely and more thoroughly, it will lead to marriage, I assert and proclaim. Nevertheless it will be condemned as wrong by the religious thought of the day, since even though it is based on a thorough intense following of the religious thought of the day, it has produced results that are contrary to the casual follower of today.

This section has been removed to avoid being misconstrued into something that does not present the living real people in a positive light as intended by the author, R David Foster, whose every intention is to reinforce the character, integrity and honour of all persons mentioned in this project. It is now under revision so as to maintain the integrity and honour of the real living people or persons mentioned against malicious audiences who may wish to discredit and defame real living people on the basis of this writing.

In fact, it is our very sins that tell of the need for this new life after rebirth. If one sins, it is as much a failure of the system that designates it a sin, as it is a failure of the sinner. Sure, at first, when one is learning a system, they will make mistakes, but when one knows the system and is still unable to avoid mistakes, or sins, than the system is flawed. This is why forgiveness is so important. Allowing one to make a mistake clarifies the system and allows it to be renewed. If one will not admit their sin or mistake, and hides it from awareness, than there is nothing the system can do to accommodate its' shortcomings, if there is not an awareness of the shortcomings of such a system.

This section has been removed to avoid being misconstrued into something that does not present the living real people in a positive light as intended by the author, R David Foster, whose every intention is to reinforce the character, integrity and honour of all persons mentioned in this project. It is now under revision so as to maintain the integrity and honour of the real living people or persons mentioned against malicious audiences who may wish to discredit and defame real living people on the basis of this writing.

Nevertheless, by my conviction, incarceration, and rebirth I have been transformed into a new person, with a new life and the joy of my animation ! I am free to pursue christ without fear of physical harm, although I may suffer physically at some point in the future, I have no fear of physical harm, nor fear of loss. By the Grace of God I will pursue my animation.

I only fall on a cycle when I have too much on my mind. The first fall was in 1987, and the second was in March of 2009, and a third was in May of 2009, shortly before my birthday, and after Matthew's One Too! was written. These stand as landmarks in my memory, and are pivot points in the growth of my faith and awareness.

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Sunday, August 28th, 2011

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© R David Foster 2009, 2011

Verse 17 17 Thus there were fourteen generations in all from Abraham to David, fourteen generations from David to the exile to Babylon, and fourteen from the exile to the Christb .

b 17 Or Messiah, “The Christ” (Greek)

and “the Messiah” (Hebrew)

both mean “the Anointed One.”

from The Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 9 9 Thus there was twelve generations established at the first cycle fall . There was nine generations to establish commitment and conclude three generations of matriarchy, initiating purposeful driven animation .

from the text of the animation HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !

written by R David Foster

Verse 9 Discussion

NIV Bible text verse 17

There are two reasons I can think of, that would be why one would count up the generations – one would be to make it easy to remember, and the other would be to assert an order on what would otherwise seem random. I have counted the generations of the matrigeneosophy for both of these reasons.

Nominal Matriarch Notes

1 Emily My Mother

2 Linda The girl next door

3 Tina Grade One

4 Patricia Grade Four

5 Mia Grade Six

6 Marcelle Lesser Matriarch

7 - Jacqueline Summer Camp

8 - Marysse Grade Nine

9 - Dorcas Grade Ten

10 Dana Grade Nine to Thirteen, – then commitment to Marriage established, & 1987

11 Kim

12 Wendy The First Cycle Fall

There is however, a certain creativity in how generations can be counted. As discussed previously, the transition can be counted, or the person of the generation can be counted, where one is a transformation that is counted and the other is the person or generation as a noun, that is counted. There are twelve persons in the table, from Emily to Wendy, but there are only eleven transitions between the twelve persons. To establish commitment, there are nine transitions, from Emily to Dana. At the first cycle fall there had been twelve persons. On the other hand, if one counts a transition from the beginning to my mother, Emily, that would add a generation making there to be twelve generations at the first cycle fall.

This is not such a radical idea, as in Asia, one is one year old from the day of their birth, and is two years old from the first anniversary of their birth. As well, does the millenium begin on January first 2000 or 2001 ?

This same creativity is used in counting up the genealogy of Jesus, as Jeconiah is counted as a member of the fourteen persons up to the exile to Babylon, and is also counted as a member of the fourteen persons after the exile to Babylon.

The Genealogy of Jesus

Abraham Solomon Jeconiah BABYLON

Isaac Rehoboam Shealtiel

Jacob Abijah Zerubbabel

Judah Asa Abiud

Perez Jehoshaphat Eliakim

Hezron Jehoram Azor

Ram Uzziah Zadok

Amminadab Jotham Akim

Nahshon Ahaz Eliud

Salmon Hezekiah Eleazar

Boaz Manasseh Matthan

Obed Amon Jacob

Jesse Josiah Joseph

David King David Jeconiah BABYLON Jesus CHRIST

This is the answer for anyone who wants closure of a definite and contained infinite person – there is not a closure here, in the geneology of Jesus, to a living infinite purpose, as it is constantly changing yet always the same. Wanting a defined and completely knowable God is satisfied only by idols or models of the infinite. But the infinite, although everywhere, cannot be contained in a finite model or image. Or can it?

In modern physics there is talk of a finite space without bounds. An example would be the two dimensional space of the surface of a sphere. The two dimensional space that forms the surface of a sphere has an area that can be calculated and is finite, but there is not a border to such a two dimensional space. One may travel around and around and never come to a border or edge or limitation, other than that there is only two dimensions.

Three dimensional space may be the same, in that there is not an edge or boundary, yet there may be a finite amount of space. When you add the fourth dimension, time, physicists talk of curved space time in trying to account for gravity. Gravity screws up everything when one tries to account for other aspects of physics. The speed of light is a limit to how fast anything can travel. This may be a sign of the finite amount of three dimensional space.

Containing the infinite has been done by the person Jesus Christ (Colossians 2:9-10). Perhaps we all have infinite aspects. If we could know what is infinite and what is finite, we could tap into the infinite and have access to all. Would we want it though? Surely all the horror we could imagine would be available to us, as well as all the joy and wonder. I have a saying – if you are going to be sensitive you have to be tough. Jesus was sensitive to God's call and the people he encountered. He was tough enough to suffer death. Are we capable of such sensitivity and toughness? Perhaps we would rather stay in our limited state and await a comfortable death. But for those who choose to follow Jesus where he leads, the wonder and joy will follow, if not the horror and suffering.

Marriage is the living model of the infinite that we can follow, in the path of Jesus, as the limited beings that we are, in our journey to the infinite, a life with God on earth, with the infinite infinitely as a finite creation. I would assert that women have infinite wholistic aptitude and men have infinite partial aptitude. Some relationship between the two would create a balance of whole and part, and exist as created. Such a relationship between whole and part can grow without end or boundary. The spouse is the infinite to the other spouse, who brings the other infinite to the first spouse, and joined, creation exists, without bound, yet limited to the extent of the relationship of whole and part.

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Sunday, September 4th, 2011

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Verse 18 The Birth of Jesus Christ 18 This is how the birth of Jesus Christ came about: His mother Mary was pledged to be married to Joseph, but before they came together she was found to be with child through the Holy Spirit.

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 10 The Birth of the Created 10 This is how the birth of the created came about . Society pledged creation through the establishment of Marriage, but before this came about, woman was found to be committed to another purpose .

from the animation HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !

written by R David Foster

Verse 10 Discussion

NIV Bible text verse 18

Who wants to marry an obviously pregnant women when you know you are not the father of the unborn child ? This is what Joseph was up against. To make things worse, this pregnant women has already obtained a commitment from you to marry her, in the acceptance of her pledge. This is what Joseph was up against. There was no hiding the fact that she was pregnant. Everyone would know that Joseph was marrying a pregnant women, and people may even take his marriage to her as an admission of his pre-marital relations with her. There is no winning way out for Joseph. What would he do, fully knowing that whatever he does, he loses?

This is what I found myself up against, as I took stock of the world around me in my late teens and early twenties. The whole world endorsed marriage as the means to bring new life into the world and as the means to carry on after death, in the life of one's children. But the game was played to win by getting the most stuff and children. This had nothing to do with a relationship between husband and wife, but rather a relationship between the husbands ability to provide and the woman's womb. Even then, in the mid nineteen-eighties, this had become politically incorrect, but the practice was prevalent. Rather than the fruitful relationship between husband and wife, the women I knew wanted to trade their womb for a comfortable life. This may sound harsh, and is harsh, as people long for more, but this was what was and is still, happening in reality. I found woman to be committed to another purpose.

I by all means most readily admit, that I had little ability to provide, and few concrete prospects on the horizon, but this was so that I could readily weed out those marriage prospects that were marrying for ulterior reasons. This left very few prospects, and even then still could not weed out all the wrongly motivated women. To my credit though, when I was in a relationship that I honoured, I have been readily able to create an ability to provide out of next to nothing. Most often though, when the woman left, the reason to sustain any ability to provide, left with her.

Even amongst those who were willing to marry, their commitment to the relationship had its limits, as I unwittingly came across my own limits. This is the lot of all people in this limited life. I can accept this, and still try to live a life worthy of a Christian, even a Roman Catholic christian. I still honour marriage, in the spirit of Pope John Paul II's Theology of the Body - I do need to read that book more – but as Joseph could not free himself of the critics of his marriage to Mary, I seem to get judged lacking as Joseph could very easily have been judged lacking.

There are very few women, in their early twenties, who could fathom what a life following Christ would entail, when he leads them to a destitute peer of a man to marry. The obstacles are too much for most people who have been coddled in the public education system all their life. This is why North America and Europe are importing religious leaders from the third world – there is not a culture of reality for our upcoming generations here to experience.

But what reason would Joseph have to take a pregnant wife? He was a righteous man, and need not humble himself for the sake of a fourteen year old girl, who had already run afoul of public opinion. This is the situation we are all called to deal with, even if most people take the moral high road and do not sully themselves.

A real marriage of a woman and a man, is a spiritual bond, that has real consequences, which include abundance and other temptations. So one must be living a spiritual life, following Christ, to even consider a real marriage relationship. Such relationships are in no way verifiable, even to the participants. This is why there is so much strife around marriage. Even many of the ones that last harbour disillusionment and closed hearts. Such behaviours, as the forgiveness and suffering of a marriage, are not supported by popular society, or even moral society, let alone individuals in such engagements, so it is not any wonder that marriages fail once challenged.

But in leading a spiritual life, following the Joy of communion and life in Christ, where are the greatest joys and happiness? The adventure and frolic of a marriage stand foremost in my mind, beyond all other pursuits, and this is what sustains society, through marriage.

Finally, accountants are always the last ones to the party. Keeping books, and records up to date is not for us but for God. This is why the official nature of marriage gets so cantankerous when one tries to write it all down and keep track of it. Marriage is a One as god and will not be contained by legislations of humanity. Nevertheless, sacraments are outward and visible signs of inward and spiritual grace. But there is never any legislation that can make a marriage any more than there is legislation that can make a baby.

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Sunday, September 11th, 2011

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Verse 19 19 Because Joseph her husband was a righteous man and did not want to expose her to public disgrace, he had in mind to divorce her quietly.

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 11 11 Because David was a righteous man and did not want to expose public disgrace he had in mind to depart quietly.

from the text of the animation HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !

written by R David Foster

Verse 11 Discussion

NIV Bible text verse 19

There is more to being righteous than being right. Joseph may have had every right to divorce Mary, being that she was pregnant outside of marriage, but that alone does not necessarily make it the right thing to do. Being right is more than just doing what is considered correct. Following the golden rule, to love God and love your neighbor as yourself, is a dynamic situation, and every incidence must be viewed on its own with respect to all the circumstances surrounding the situation. Furthermore, one must act independently of the pressure from all sides to move in one direction over another, and instead, consider the whole of the situation in the light of the infinite. Nevertheless, many take the high road of popular morality and choose to not sully themselves.

Being open to the infinite aspects of one's life adds a further dimension to decision making. When one considers something as vast as the infinite, and acts on it, many others who cannot view one's decision from the same vantage point will be unable to see any reason why one chooses to act as they do. Judas could not understand why Jesus would not claim his place as ruler of creation, when Judas could honestly believe that Jesus was the Christ, the Messiah, the anointed One. In my own life, of employment for example, I have very often chosen to leave a job, when everyone around me could not see it as a good or wise decision, and would have preferred that I stay in that employment. But we all know that certain situations fail to continue to be fruitful, and must be abandoned. Furthermore, free enterprise allows us to make these choices for ourselves. Why is this? I would assert that free enterprise incorporates the idea that the individual has a unique and only view of an employment situation and will act in their own best interest, and this is the best interest of the community. But in an infinite world, beyond free enterprise, this same infinite aspect comes into play, and I have acted with respect to the greatest understanding I can muster, and have chosen to leave unfruitful situations. This has disappointed others around me, as well as confused them, but has lead to further fruitful situations, in spite of the apparent cost, which does not appear to others to be worth the reward. Many have chosen, in the absence of any understanding that makes sense, being available to them, to attribute such decisions to mental illness. Such is my lot. Nevertheless, I am free and able to pursue my animation and this is my reward. Crazy like a fox – Joseph knew that a greater purpose was at work, as this text of the Gospel of Matthew plays out in the next verse, and made his own decision in light of the infinite, if not fully or generally understood.

In the text of the animation, I was up against the popular morality that an established ability to provide was prerequisite to marriage, when the popular opinion was that marriage was solely for the purpose of children and comfort, and had nothing to do with an infinite relationship between whole and part, female and male. I could have tried to change this popular opinion, but I did not feel up to the challenge, nor did I have the resources to do so, so I chose to live the remainder of my life apart from such apostasy and began to make my way accordingly.

The phrase “the pursuit of happiness” is full of unheralded assumptions. Although it is assumed that we are free to pursue happiness, what happens when one achieves happiness – does this confound society ? I would believe so. Consider drug addiction – sure it is an empty pursuit, but it does provide pleasure, and people pursue the pleasure just as the rest of society appears to do. But if one does achieve happiness, does this confound societies economy? Look at the over abundance of the western world. We have and consume more than we need, yet evangelists appeal to our everlasting hunger. If we were content with less, what would drive the economy ? The holy cow of industry and work and employment would lie down on its arse and fail to continue to be any consideration. Where can one be happy in such a society? So I chose to leave, in another apparently misunderstood decision.

Yet life goes on, and I may have been in the wilderness and other areas outside society, but I still had a life and grew to face further challenges. I tried to live in Povungnituk, in the arctic of Quebec, yet this door was closed, when in spite of doing a poor job as instructed, I was further hindered by not being allowed to wander the tundra on my time off. I tried to cache sufficient funds to purchase acreage but could not budget the funds for the municipal taxes. Although I was employed doing site supervision in the far north of Ontario, that door was closed when my job became stupid, and it was still too closely tied to the wrong side of society, in Toronto, rather than being tied to the life I loved in the remote communities of the north. These pursuits proved fruitless, yet I repeatedly gave them second chances and they repeatedly proved fruitless. The pivot point in my understanding was when I realized, while alone, that people are far more curious than any rock, tree, body of water, or animal, and this lead to a love of people as they are, and as I come across them, from time to time.

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Sunday, September 18th, 2011

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Verse 20 20 But after he had considered this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said “Joseph son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary home as your wife, because what is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit.

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 12 12 But after he had accomplished this, Sharon's image, as all other, called him back where he found conceived, Marriage as purposeful redemption if in the Holy Spirit .

from the animation text of HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too!

written by R David Foster

Verse 12 Discussion

NIV Bible text verse 20

Making decisions, when one is respecting the infinite aspects, has a certain life of its own. Practically, one must consider all aspects, and wait for the solution or choice to present itself. This can be an active consideration, while one holds off from making a decision until a suitable choice presents itself. This deliberation is not passive, but active, as one explores the possibilities. Joseph deliberated, then thought his mind was made up, but then, before he had acted on his decision, the choice was presented to him, and it was more wonderful than anything he had considered.

This has happened to me many times, with Maisie, Irene and work, for example. An unmaintainable situation seems to require a certain choice or action, but then a terrific solution presents itself and all one need do is act on that solution. In my work experience, the best example is the first drafting job I had. I had already been in the far north, in Povungnituk, but that did not pan out. Before that, I had already worked for over a year for electricians, but that did not pan out. And even before that, when I was fourteen, I had completed a college structural drafting course, but neither in Texas or Ontario, would anyone hire a fifteen year old draftsperson. These three endeavours proved fruitless and seemed unrelated. But when I was twenty, I decided I wanted to go to university, because of Miranda, and subsequently decided I needed a desk job to prepare for university. So I again began looking for drafting work. Remarkably, I found one at the opposite end of Toronto from where I was living, and I was hired. As I began to work for these electrical engineers, with my structural drafting training and qualifications, they began to ask me if I would be interested in site supervision work in northern Ontario. So the three entirely unrelated, unfruitful endeavours of drafting training, electrical work and living in the far north, made me the perfect person for the job I acquired. Furthermore, the civil engineer remembered how, at the age of five or so, I had graded his University of Toronto engineering design graphics assignments that my father, as professor there, had assigned him. My father told his class that his sons had graded the class's assignments, by putting a tracing of the correct answer over the students' work and marking the differences. So there is not any knowing where a life following Christ will lead !

Where Joseph chose to accept Mary, I chose to not accept the incorrectness I found in society. I did leave and paddled lake Ontario and the Trent Severn Waterway, for about a total of five days. I accomplished leaving society, but before I was fully committed, I began to see things differently. As I experienced and saw the world around me in a new light, I found myself thinking that so and so would like to see this, or so and so would get a kick out of that. Others, both matriarchs and other people, were forefront in my mind, and I accepted that they were important to me. I appreciated people as they were, since they were more intriguing than any thing I encountered on my trip, other than lock keepers. Sharon was my matriarch at the time, and coloured all my memories of the people I had known. These memories and considerations of others, called me back, as just as in the movie Into the Wild , the protagonist writes, in his last days before he dies, that “Happiness is meaningless if not shared.”

Once I returned, my spiritual life progressed to the point where I found myself giving importance to marriage, as a spiritual bond. I acknowledged that there would always be a prominent female interest in my life, and I chose to accept this. I found a spiritual relationship with a woman to be of utmost importance, as a shepherding influence to my many unrelated pursuits and endeavours, which would stretch my resources in too many directions. This understanding has grown and flowered like a lotus, colouring all of my life since then. I began to seek out a spiritual relationship with a woman, which I called marriage.

So where Joseph found the Lord in Mary's womb, I found the Lord in the marriage relationship. As Joseph forgave Mary for being pregnant by another, I forgave women, for having ulterior motives for marriage. Joseph had no way of verifying whether Mary was really pregnant by the Holy Spirit, and I had no way of verifying whether a woman I was engaged with was engaged with me for the purpose of an infinite spiritual relationship. Joseph saw within Mary, the salvation of the world, and I saw within marriage, the salvation of the world. But for Joseph, the salvation was to come by the death and resurrection of the fruit of Mary's womb, where for me, the salvation was at hand in the sacrament of Marriage, if one could take up their cross, as Jesus did, and live a life of forgiveness in Marriage.

For us today, Jesus has saved us, and where we should now head, is into the infinite spiritual bond of marriage, fully armed with forgiveness, and prepared to meet the second, third, fourth, and as many as one can count, comings of Christ, to claim us in our endless life on earth with God.

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Sunday, September 25th, 2011

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Verse 21 21 She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesusc, because he will save his people from their sins.”

c 21 Jesus is the Greek form of Joshua,

which means the LORD saves.

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 13 13 It will give birth to a One as Jesus, because the union will save people from their sins .

from the text of the animation HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !

written by R David Foster

Verse 13 Discussion

NIV Bible text verse 21

In these verses of the animation text, the image in the animation becomes two tori, perpendicular to each other, linked and rotating longitudinally. The two hands rotating toward each other become the two tori. This is a symbol or image of the One, in its crudest form.

The common symbol or image of christianity is a cross – two lines perpendicular to each other. The image is not to be worshiped, but people find meaning in the image. Originally it was taken to be a sign of the form of torture, death and victory of Jesus, but others since then have found meaning in the cross as a symbol of their faith. This is the relationship between female and male, whole and part. The whole is the horizontal line and the part is the vertical line. The union of the two lines becomes the cross, that Jesus was nailed to and died upon. I have never heard of this implied meaning being endorsed, but it is out there.

For example, Jehovah's Witnesses profess that Jesus died on a torture stake, without a horizontal bar. Why would they do this? What does this have to do with the faith they profess. My experience with them is that they do not entertain any wholistic thinking, but rather find wholistic thinking to be superstitious and wrong. I rest my case.

My personal belief is that Jesus, the one who saves, the anointed One, was at, and is, the union of whole and part, in every respect – as a person, in history, in creation and in God. The One is more prevalent than any historical person, and is all of existence, throughout the mind, throughout accomplishments, throughout achievements, absent in failures, throughout heaven and earth, and throughout God. Furthermore, the One is alive, as Jesus is alive to all who encounter Him to this day, and is dynamic and in motion.

So I offer this crude animated image of the union of whole and part, of a rotating horizontal torus, linked with a rotating vertical torus. As the HESUS JOY CHRIST series progresses, this animated image or symbol of the One, becomes more defined, accurate and complex, but remains a remarkably simple idea.

So “ . .. . . marriage will give birth to a One as Jesus, because the union will save people from their sins.” This means that the union of marriage, the spiritual bond between two persons, one infinitely inclined toward the part, or male, and the other infinitely inclined toward the whole, or female, strikes a balance between whole and part, and may participate in all the rewards of the presence of the One as Jesus, found there. Marriage has the redeeming quality that makes all else worthwhile and successful, as any balance of whole and part does.

Nevertheless, all the Jewish teaching is fundamental to Christian teaching, and all the Christian teaching is fundamental to the spiritual bond of marriage, as well as any reality that may exist. In the path of the spiritual relationship of marriage, all the markers, trials, tribulations, sufferings, joys, death, rebirth and achievements have been marked out for us by Jesus, who lived a perfect life before God, and is the Way, the Truth and the Life.

Have you ever wondered what one was supposed to do once one has had an overwhelming encounter with Jesus and has been converted, baptized, reborn or whatever? One could do charity work, join the ministry, or just join the choir, and find not much else is different from before ! How does one apply this new found faith and conviction? The answer is one must take up their cross and follow the living Jesus, the union of whole and part, wherever He leads. I assert that He will lead one to marriage, and this union of whole and part, not only is the door to the eternal, it is full of all the trials Jesus had to face as it is the same path that He walked, the balance of whole and part, and will likewise lead to death and resurrection, many times over before any final death. Each and every death is final, if not physically fatal.

Death, whether marital, professional, intellectual, emotional, social, career or physical, is the door to new life with God. If the ultimate whole and part can be united, God may dwell with us in heaven on earth. God would still be God, our One parent apart and ahead, Jesus would still be leading the Way, and the Holy Spirit would still move us, but our spouse would be the presence of God in each of our worlds. Furthermore, if the union of whole and part is fundamental to all of existence, whether an idea in a mind, in heaven, or earth, or even the existence of a stone, and is more fundamental than death, this union of whole and part may transcend death and allow life to flourish throughout a sinful world ruled by forgiveness of sin as found in the eternal forgiveness and love that is marriage. Do you believe that Christ raised Lazarus and others from the dead? I believe Jesus Christ, the prime union of whole and part, is capable of such deeds. Do you?

If one professes Jesus as Lord and Saviour, and is armed with forgiveness, they must be true to this faith they profess, throughout all shortcomings they find in themselves, as well as others, and profess this faith by word, action and deed, standing firm to the end, and accept the loving forgiveness God offers them to see them through to their new life in God and on earth. Marriage is the love and forgiveness of God applied. Where else in the world is their a more worthy application of what any religion teaches us, especially christianity.

The Theology of the Body, taught by the late Pope John Paul II, as I understand it, as proclaimed by Christopher West in his talk entitled Marriage and the Eucharist, states that putting the burden of being God on a spouse will crush the spouse. I agree. I assert, furthermore, that this is the primary reason that death will be a frequent visitor in any real marriage, but at least as many times as death darkens a marriage, the opportunity for forgiveness and new life will present itself to the marriage. The path Jesus walked is not any different from the path of a real marriage, with its many healings, understanding and teaching, as well as suffering, death and resurrection, amongst other victories.

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Sunday, October 2nd, 2011

Verses 22 & 23 22 All this took place to fulfill what the Lord had said through the prophet: 23”The virgin will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel”d – which means “God with us.”

The Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

d 23 Isaiah 7:14

Isaiah 7:14 “Therefore the Lord himself will give youa a sign: The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, andb will call him Immanuel.c

a 14 The Hebrew is plural.

b 14 Masoretic Text; Dead Sea Scrolls and he or and they

c 14, 8 Immanuel means God with us.

Verse 14 14 All this took place as fulfillment of the Law and the Prophets, as foretold by Emmanuel and will be God again with us .

from the text of the animation HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !

written by R David Foster

Verse 14 Discussion

NIV Bible text verses 22 & 23

There is not anything that I am trying to take away from Christianity, rather I am trying to tell of and illustrate what Christianity points to, from my experience of the world and of Christianity. Jesus said he was not taking anything away from the Jewish Law but was teaching the fulfillment of the Jewish Law. All of my experience and education points me in the direction of marriage. Marriage is more than I have ever heard tell. So I am telling – GET MARRIED AND STAY MARRIED.

My experience has fulled out my education. I do not have, by any means, an exhaustive education, but by watching and listening, I have been able to integrate the little I know and build on an understanding that has repeatedly been confirmed by further experience. Then when I consider my life with respect to the infinite I proceed accordingly.

When I was in my mid teens, I was concerned about heaven and hell. Why would God create anyone so as to send them to eternal hell. This disturbed me greatly. I understood God as an infinite identity that was the infinite purpose of life and loved all of life. Yet I could not integrate the idea of a loving God creating any being for eternal punishment, let alone death. I was very relieved to read, in very small type, so that one had to lean in to read it, on an all black t-shirt of an Oakville punk co-worker, the phrase “Life is hard / Then you die.” I laughed out loud! Forget heaven and hell, it is life that counts, and death is the end. That simple phrase got me back to reality and I found great joy in it. For the next several years, I remembered that phrase so much that I painted it on the shaft of my kayak paddle, right between my hands where I could always read it, and on a paddle blade, in a way that people had to figure out what it was they were looking at. I still have that paddle displayed in my living room. I would now say that total death of any total awareness is all anyone need be concerned about.

As well, the Scientific Method, of hypothesis, testing, observation and the revision of the hypothesis, precipitating further testing, and so on, kept me busy into my late twenties, when I realized that any hypothesis can be proven wrong if there is sufficient testing, so I turned my attention to other matters in a more spiritual way.

So when things began to present themselves in light of the infinite, the Bible stories I was taught as a child took on a very real meaning, and failed to remain to be anything like a stupid kid's tale told to the naive and superstitious. For example, the story of the two sons of a vineyard owner, one refusing to work but then working, and the other agreeing to work but then not working, no longer is a fairy tale to make children obedient, but is an illustration of religious leaders saying they will lead the people spiritually and then not doing it, where the lay persons say they will not be spiritual leaders, but do lead spiritually.

When I began this path of mine, in my late teens, I encountered this fulfillment of the law and the prophets, both the God of Charleston Heston's Ten Commandments, and the United Church's support of the boat people in the late nineteen-seventies, and it has accompanied me everywhere since. This is at least like a second, as opposed to a first, coming of Christ, that repeatedly builds on the last coming. And this fulfillment of Christianity, Marriage, will be God again with us.

Immanuel, or Emmanuel, means “God with us”. This name was given to Jesus as he was God with us. Immanuel foretold His second coming, but where is it ? It is right under our noses, if we can discard the naive and stupid superstitious interpretations of religious material, just as the kingdom of heaven is at hand. Why do people cling to such obviously stupid understandings, both within the church and outside of the church? A profound understanding places God face to face with us, and the face of emmanuel is your spouse. Jesus foretold a second coming, and His teaching points to marriage, so there it is, if one can get over their hang ups about stupid ideas of God, embrace christianity and move on further to where it points – Marriage.

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Wednesday, October 5th, 2011

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Taking a break : A Discussion of "Koans"

Events in my life lately, have caused me to consider that I may not be able to complete as much of the animation as I had hoped. Once again, my livelihood is under attack for political reasons.

As well, my brother has raised the point that the animation writing is unintelligible, which I thoroughly understand.

So I feel it is time again to discuss how one may make sense of this animation, as I did in the winter of 2009 in my Blog post. It was a post from the book Praying Our Experiences A by Joseph F. Schmidt, which I will once again discuss here.

In chapter three of his book, page 27 in my copy, under the heading Introspection – Narcissism and the Limited Ego, this Jesuit Priest acknowledges the dangers of considering our experiences. One may discover their weaknesses and gifted-ness by considering their experiences but they risk becoming narcissistic. As well, one may rationalize their experiences so that they find what they want to find in them. Loving ourselves over others is a danger, but we cannot love others if we do not first love ourselves. It is a precarious undertaking. Authentic consideration of life is not the problem, but part of the solution.

When the ego is dominant one will judge each of their experiences as a victory or a defeat, rather than consider what they say to one. This rationalism leaves no room for authentic consideration to arrive through the cracks in our ego. An example of this is the judgment of a Pharisee that Jesus, if He was the Messiah, would have known what kind of woman was washing His feet. The dominance of the ego would not leave room for the unexpected and thereby close their awareness to God working in their life.

In order to open a disciple's mind to the non-rational and the unexpected, the teacher of some eastern traditions will present the disciple with a koan as a focus for consideration. A koan is a statement that does not make sense. It is impossible to resolve the statement through analysis. This is the point.

A classic koan is “What is the sound of one hand clapping?” The answer must come from beyond rationalization and analysis, from beyond the ego. It is not a matter of rationalizing the koan, but rather being in faith with the statement that brings personal awareness and transformation. The ego must surrender to the helplessness.

Our experiences themselves are koans, in that they are not rational, containing contradictions and elements that do not make sense. Looking for meaning appears fruitless – this is the point. This opens one up to the source of life on the other side of the limited rational ego.

So all of the animation text, can be considered as one would consider a koan.

As with life, just because something does not appear to make sense, does not mean there is not any sense at all in it. This is the achievement of science – making sense of the natural world. Geographers have mapped the irregularities and inconsistencies of the surface of the earth, making it known.

So the animation text does not appear to make any sense, but careful consideration of whatever sense one can find in it, is the meaning of the animation.

An example is the question “Can we lead with you?” Does this inquire if the questioner can be a leader in a group of leaders? Or does it mean that the person questioned will be leading the charge, and everyone else, including the questioner, will be right along shortly ?

As well, one may compare this question to the text in the Gospel of Matthew where Jesus, an embodiment of the One, says “Follow me!” The disciples hear a command, but in the animation, the One hears a question – “Can we lead with you?” So just as the people wanted to make Jesus king after he fed the crowds, one following in the path of Jesus will be called upon to lead.

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Sunday, October 16th, 2011

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Praying Our Experiences by Joseph F. Schmidt, Published by Saint Mary's Press, Christian Brother's Publications; Winona, Minnesota; www.smp.org . © 2000

Verse 24 24 When Joseph woke up, he did what the angel of the Lord had commanded him and took Mary home as his wife.

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter Three, New International Version.

Verse 15 15 When David woke out, he began what he could do and took up animation to till out a wife .

from the animation text of HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too ! by R David Foster

Verse 15 Discussion

NIV Bible text verse 24

A living god is ever present and providing opportunities to anyone who is attentive. All one need do is pay attention and watch for these opportunities as they present themselves. As Joseph suffered indecision he rested in reason, until an overwhelming experience presented the opportunity of justification in the one option of many he had been deliberating on. It was a personal interior deliberation he had suffered, that was resolved in his heart due to an overwhelming experience of being in the presence of the angel of the Lord, in a dream, and being instructed as to how to proceed. The means by which he was to follow this command were readily available and the command was easy to carry out, especially once he had the resolve of a determined heart.

In my life, at the end of everything at both the end of 2008, and at the end of 2009, when everything had failed and it seemed all was lost, I deliberated what I should pursue in this world. When I looked around, it was apparent that everything I needed to produce the animated message of the importance of marriage, and present it, albeit in a limited way, was readily at hand, and furthermore, all other pursuits were problematic. I had a clear idea of the importance of marriage, based on what I had written in the winter of 2008 in a piece I called The Layman's Guide to Marriage ; I had the book of Matthew that spoke clearly to me and my experience; I had the means to produce animation at little cost; I had an income as well as problems with employment that forced me to not rely on employment; and the Revue Cinema was looking to screen anything it could get with their Drop Your Shorts, open screening program.

So I began, not knowing or having too much faith in where it would lead, but having the spirit to carry it out, and just enough faith to maintain the effort. I still have no idea where all this work will lead, but as I am able, I pursue this animation.

Not only do I need a wife, the world needs spouses that are prepared to follow through with marriage, the spiritual bond, as well as any other bonds that come along with it. Marriage, the spiritual bond, is far more important than the economic, social, family, physical, and even emotional bonds that come along with it, and this is overlooked in today's society. When any of these other bonds fail, the spiritual bond must be maintained to see the marriage through. These are the deaths that will occur and must be resolved by the spiritual bond. Why is this ?

In a world where religion and faith are considered to be highly questionable, marriage as the application of the christian religion and faith is a frequent casualty. But if the union of whole and part that is created through forgiveness of the opposing inclination, is fundamental to all of existence, no wonder the world is limited in what is possible ! Marriage is the forge of this union of whole and part, where understanding is crafted from experience and applied to all else. Each understanding will have a lifespan including birth, prevalence, accomplishment, failure and death, followed by the birth of a new understanding and this “second” understanding's lifespan. Marriage must be used as a resource and a foundation for this cycle of birth and death of understandings. It is the refuge and the battleground that resolves existence, death and birth.

Since I believe my marriage failed due to a lack of understanding of how important marriage is, I feel personally compelled to proclaim this understanding, in order to “till” or create an understanding that a spouse may hold and thereby allow a marriage, a spiritual bond. All people, not only spouses, need to understand how important the spiritual bond of marriage is, since marriage never exists in a vacuum and external pressures and influences can arise from anywhere and break the marriage bond.

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Sunday, October 30th, 2011

© R David Foster 2009, 2011

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Verse 25 25 But he had no union with her until she gave birth to a son. And he gave him the name Jesus.

from the Gospel of Matthew, Chapter One, New International Version

Verse 16 16 He had no union with her until separated, and animated Marriage, which he called “Emmanuel“, meaning “ God with us “ .

from the text of the animation HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's One Too !

written by R David Foster

Verse 16 Discussion

NIV Bible text verse 25

If the parents of Jesus were suppose to be legitimate when he was born they may be considered to have to have had marital relations so as to consummate their marriage ! As the story goes, they did not consummate their marriage until after Jesus was born, if they ever did, Mary being ever virgin ! The whole situation is ripe with bending the rules ! This is the point ! A living God is not bound by His own rules, and frequently transcends them.

This is what many people take as an indication of the powers at be being at work – the transcending of natural rules and laws; so much so that they chase “miracles” and supernatural occurrences. The point, though, is that we are not to worship the laws of God, but rather we are to worship the living God Himself, who is beyond His laws. God wants not only a personal relationship with each of us, He wants a loving personal relationship with each of us. He sets us up to encounter Him, yet we dismiss His presence as a coincidence, or luck, or the scheme of another.

In my life, I try to be self reliant, responsible, attentive and dependable. This leads me to be apart from God as the personal source of my entire life, ever present and ever patient, wanting me to know and love Him. I did everything by the rules in getting married, and this marriage failed. God wanted me to know Him, not just His rules. I now may not rely on my obedience to rules, as my salvation, as the rules have become impotent, and fail to offer a solution to my salvation. It is God alone who saves, rather than humanity's religious institutions and understandings of God's law. So much so that Jesus Himself was a criminal.

Where Joseph named Jesus, which means “the one who saves”, I named the animation Immanuel, which means “God with us”. I try to present God to the audience in personally meaningful ways, with koan statements and presentations of the first book of Matthew in my life.

The Matrigeneosophy of the Created, is a list of the “generations” preceding the coming of the animation of HESUS JOY CHRIST, as the genealogy of Jesus is a list of the generations preceding the coming of Immanuel. The Birth of the Created, is the story of how the animation came about to being made. As a balance of whole and part, which is what I strive for, the animation is Christ like, as far as Christ is a balance of whole and part.

Matthew's Two Four is the story of the end of my previous “life” and the beginning end of this “life”, as foretold by Jesus in the twenty-fourth chapter of the Gospel of Matthew.

God is with us, even if we are unaware of Him. He does want us to be aware of Him, and not only aware of Him, but to thoroughly know him and even more, love Him. I often wonder if this is the meaning of life, to know and love God. But once one has gained this height, God sends them back with a task to serve His people, which is everyone, in a specific way under specific circumstances. This is what they mean when they say “take up your cross and follow Jesus”. This is very specific. One need just look around and see what is possible. If it is possible, it may be what God is calling one to do. But careful deliberation is necessary to determine if this is of God or else. I'll never know in this life if this animation is truly what God wants, but I pray regularly and earnestly, and day by day, more animation is getting done. Day by day . .. ..

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Sunday, November 6th, 2011

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Well here we go ! We're (were)a third of the way through discussing the seventeen verses of HESUS JOY CHRIST / Matthew's Three Fold , so it is (was) time to take a break and consider how to view the wordage that is now pushing seven thousand words !

A body of knowledge has it's limits, and one limit has nothing to do with how many pages are written about such a body of knowledge. When one ( or a group ) creates a body of knowledge they are making many decisions, or rather, assumptions that are not stated outright. These assumptions are made early on in the creation of a body of knowledge but seriously limit the effectiveness of that body of knowledge. So as an example of how creating a body of knowledge can become ridiculous, usually around the point at which academia takes over, I have chosen to write about everything I know about how to pick up a stick.

HOW TO PICK UP A STICK !